So I started the beginning of this week with a personal goal and challenge to react to everything in my life with a positive disposition. I wanted to see if I had the self control to respond to all negativity toward me or any negativity at all with a positive energy that would infect my surroundings and anyone in the vicinity. Well, I failed right from the start. I found myself very distracted the beginning of the week and losing focus on what my goal was. I was very disappointed in myself and knew that I could have done better.
I’m a person that hates failure, but I also know that sometimes in life failure itself is imminent and the key is to know how to get up from that failure and see what I can learn from that situation and test. I know that once I’m able to learn from the failure itself that it will make me a better person and equip me with the skills to not make the same mistake as well as develop different strategies to properly handle similar issues in the future. So with this in mind, I got over it. You fail, you sulk, you pick yourself up, you learn and you try again! This is what you should always do when faced with obstacles that you can’t defeat initially. From that point forward I remained conscious of any sort of negativity coming toward me but most important the negativity that I was around but was directed toward someone else.
You see, my biggest worry wasn't negativity directed towards me (which there wasn’t much of that at all), because that's easy to see and prepare for, but it was the negativity that others permeated. It was negativity and issues that people had towards their own problems and others that they carried with them like an aura or brought to me in the form of conversation to vent about. It was the negative words they had to say about others and situations. You may be unaware that negative energy is just as potent and even more dangerous when you're disarmed by the fact that it’s not directed at you. What you don’t know is that it can still transfer to you and affect you regardless of who it's about or where it comes from.
So I found myself lending encouraging words to others this week. I found myself trying to help others see through a different lens and if they did indeed have a point to their anger, I simply tried not to feed into it or fuel it but tried to offer positive ways to rectify the situation and send positive vibes to those involved. You know what I discovered? It’s that I felt good on the inside. I started to gather a sense of peace regardless of the situations the day brought forth. Now I’m not saying everything was perfect and my days were all sunshine and flowers but I can say it felt good not having any weight of negative energy upon me.
I can say that all though I saw minor positive changes in those around me (The sample size of 4-5 days probably wasn’t long enough) I did see significant changes in how I felt personally. And yes, I do believe as I continue with this project I’ll continue to get better at it, I will feel better, and for some reason I do feel like it will have a greater affect on my surroundings. So yeah, I do believe in this whole transfer of energy idea. And yes I do believe that I’m going to continue to work at it, perfect it, make it a lifestyle and try to continuously and positively affect my everyday life and those I come in contact with.