I haven't written a post in a few weeks now. Every time I started one, I just didn't feel the urge to keep going. Every time I would come up with a topic to write about, I would start it but lose interest just as fast as the idea appeared to me. Quite frankly, I just wasn't interested in blogging and I had nothing to say. So instead of forcing it, I just said nothing. Yeah, there have been plenty of things that have gone on both in my personal life and in the world that I could have written about but my heart wouldn't have been into it. For once I wanted to just sit back and be quiet, I didn't want to be a commentator but an observer and let the world go as is, without offering my input which I'm sure everyone has done quite well without. Now I think I'm ready once more, I'm ready to put my thoughts to paper for those who are interested in reading them.
I've been doing alot of reflecting as I like to do from time to time because I think it's healthy and important to personal growth. What I thought about most is how I would be remembered by peers and family down the line. Would I be remembered as someone who lived up to his potential? Would I be remembered as someone who brought joy to the lives of others or negative emotions? What I wondered the most is whether or not I would be remembered as someone who did amazing things which contributed to the lives of others in a lasting fashion. And you know what? I have no idea what the answer will be.
What I do know is that everyday I wake up and try to be a better person than I was the day before. I know that everyday I try to help others and teach someone something new. I know that in turn, I also make it a point to learn from everyone that I come in contact with because you never know what skills you can pick up along the way that could be of great use to you or anyone else. Something that I struggle with is feeling like I'm in position to use my talents and abilities to their fullest potential. I feel like I have so much to offer and I do my best to network personally and professionally so that i'm in a position to use my talents. But there are also times where I feel like I'm continuously running into a brick wall and unable to gain access to certain opportunities to do the things that I would like, to better myself and my career.
There's also one thing that I figured out that hadn't quite crossed my mind before. First let me say that no one in this world does it alone and everyone who has experienced success in life has had some sort of support or help at some juncture of their journey whether or not it be alot or a little. Absolutely no one does it alone, that's a false concept. Even the founding fathers who wrote that in the constitution were slave owners, so that hardly counts as being a do it yourself success. But the one question I had to ask myself was, "Do I allow myself to be great?" What I mean by this is do I sometimes overthink initiatives that I want to start, or sometimes talk myself out of things when all I need to do is just forge ahead?
Some of us are perfectionist and we don't like to start things until everything is in place and going exactly according to the plan we put together in our head. Sometimes we fail to act unless we have three or four contingencies in place incase something goes wrong. We want the climate to be just right before we make our moves. And while planning is an integral piece to success, over planning to the point where you are being inactive can halt success or progress. I think I've been a privy to this and its time to stop now that I've recognized it within myself. It's time to take the many ideas I have and put them out there and get moving regardless of whether or not everything is in place the way that I want it to be. So before I ask myself "Can I be great?", I need to tell myself, "Let me be great!"